I feel as if I’m always alone at home. Even if mum’s home I feel as if I have no one around since she’s always in her room and I’m always in mine.

I get scold at for being myself, for saying things I normally say by my so called family. My grandma, who raised me for half my life scold at me for saying someone’s house is going to collapse because they built it themselves. I guess it’s a harsh thing to say but that’s me. You can’t blame me for being me.

If you’re going to be around me then accept me for who I am, don’t tell me to be what I’m suppose to be because I’ll disagree and most likely I will go pissy pants at you.

This isn’t the time to piss me off because this the most important time of my life of everyone who is at the same age and year as me. It’s important to not piss us off. if you’re going to support us then go ahead, but if you’re going to say something stupid or unsupportive then shut the hell up, we don’t want to hear it.

Having good connections with your family is important probably more important than the connections you have with your friends. But what sucks is that the connections you have with your friends are much more understandable then those with your family.

Friends understand what you’re going through because they too go through the same thing now and then. Family don’t understand at all and they yell at you for being you. Parents are so old school who think just because we’re girls we have to behave politely and be gentle. And they think just because you’re guys then you have to be a gentlemen who never raises your voice no matter what.

Well they can go live that way, we’ll live how ever the hell we want. This is the main reason as to why I want to live with my friends. Ever since I was in primary I had always wished that when I grow up I’ll live with my friends.

This post, I’m not sure what its aim is but I really want the parents and family to understand what it is that’s happening. I want them to realise that time has changed and so has the way of living. They can’t stay in the time that they were born in, they have to understand but I guess I can see that it won’t be happening any time soon so why do I bother?

The best thing happened today, well just before. I cooked for mum ROFL, its not that I never cook but before when I cooked the simplest dish and brought it up to her room on a tray. She laughed and was amazed. She was happy to see the food on a tray being brought to her.

That’s happiness right there. The happiness that I try to find in my family, to have them smile at the simplest things. I should be grateful for what I have left, I should make the most of it as I can because soon I will grow up and I will always be out at either work or school. I won’t have time for family. I can already see that my sister doesn’t have time for us, she’s always out and that’s another reason as to why I’m usually alone now days.

It’s good to have someone out there that you can talk to. I only have three, but one I hardly get to sit down with. So this post is here because there’s no one to talk to at the moment.

Sometimes talking to someone who has no idea what you’re going through is good because it makes you feel like a normal human being who is living a simple life.

I find myself living a way too simple life, that’s why I took up Taekwondo, to make it harder for me so I can focus on more things.

But then when I think about it, I have as much problems as any other person does, I guess my life ain’t that simple after all.