Being fooled by what you see

Depending on what it is that I’m wearing allows me to look like a complete different person. Just because my clothes are different it doesn’t mean my personality and mood is. Therefore, please don’t be fooled by the looks, don’t be fooled by what you see, use your mind to see the real thing.

LINDAH!!!! SUCKS!!! (A)

Okay so I thank you for writing this to me because I love you oh so much don’t I? *stares*

Yes Lindah and I have been such great friends for the past six years. So great that she DOESN'T even REMEMBER that my first boyfriend was in YEAR EIGHT!

Year nine I was single and the only event in that year was city camp.

Yes and when I got paralysed by Chee, I went to SICK BAY and not HOSPITAL. Thanks for your get well card thingo. See how good of a friend she is? You wish I went into hospital *greases* hahahaha

So that’s probably about it that I want to fix up. Now it’s my turn to say some things. It probably wouldn’t be as long because I don’t notice many things around me *forgive me hun ;D*

My first impression of Lindah when she walked in our home room was “Woah her eyes are puffy!!” then it was “Damn she’s quiet!”

At recess when I was SUPPOSE TO SHOW HER AROUND THE SCHOOL she RAN OFF with her primary friend Lisa.

But soon after we got into a group which were the six stooges and me and her became the bester friends due to our marriage. I don’t think I proposed to her but our honeymoon was on a massive rock.

What I do remember is the amount of times she has cheated on me and the amount of times that I wanted a divorce. The papers were never signed and APPARENTLY I ALWAYS ran back to her. Tsk as if you’re that special (A)

Being friends you basically do EVERYTHING with them. You go out, you stay in, you eat, you watch, you strip (A)

You argue with your friends and when it was OUR turn for arguing, it hardly lasted five minutes. We could never stay angry at each other for more than five minutes. But one time in year EIGHT when I had my first boyfriend I was always talking about him to her which made her feel as if I was rubbing it in her face which I wasn’t. But because of the age that we were in, we couldn’t help but think so.

That caused an argument between us and it lasted about a day and a half. It got to the point where when she wrote me a letter (which I still have) it had said “I don’t know if you still want to be friends?”

I was like O_______________O   NOOOOOOO

I couldn’t imagine losing a friend like LINDAH!!!!! So I called her and we solved it. The next day we were fine like fine could be. LOL that was probably the only real argument that we had so far (A)

As time passed, I really did depend on her. I always ran to her when I had stuff I couldn’t figure out. Back then she had always told me what I could possibly do. But now that we’re older and we understand each other more, she doesn’t tell me what I could do anymore because she knows that I know what to do.

You could never ask for a better friend than the one I have right here. On my bed ;D  ROFLL

She’s one of a kind even if her life may not be simple and that you would need a lot of time to be able to handle her, I’m fine with it. I’ve seen guys revolve around her and they come and go like the wind. They come to her because they’re attracted by her face. But they go because soon after they learn about her personality and mind.

They’re such dogs seriously!

Ummm about the envy thing, I find it weird but because of the difference with those things between us, I guess I understand. Its not that I push myself to be happy, I just seem to find myself to be happy when I’m around people who isn’t my family. Even though when I think about it, it makes me sad I still smile when I look up at the faces who are smiling back at me. Family, who needs them? I guess we do… LOL

In the situation that I’m going through, it’s probably why I rather be in your shoes and never meet this dad of mine than have him taken away from me when the most important time of my life begins.

With your situation, it’s hard to pull through and I see why. It’s no wonder why you envy me, but guess what? You could be part of this, you can be so welcome to be part of all of this.

Tipper: and we’re gonna go YOU KNOW WHY!!!  (What happens in Vegas)  ROFLL

But its your choice if you want to or not. I only say this because I don’t want you to be alone. We’re in year twelve now, the most important year of our lives. Next year, we will be going our separate ways. Neither of us wants to drift apart and so if you do come and be part of this, we won’t have to drift apart because we will be able to talk like how we always do.

I can’t believe that the end is coming so soon. It was just yesterday that we were getting married by our Lote teacher, Mr Amos. PACHE!!

Like I always say, it will only be awkward if you let it be. Things will only happen if you let it. Therefore I won’t let us drift apart. I’ll do what it takes for this marriage to work!! (Y)  ROFL

This BEST FRIEND of mine, Lindah, she always knows what to do or say to get me laughing or crying. Like he post about me, at the beginning well, the whole first of it, made me laugh so bad I felt light headed. Until when it got to the part about how she envied me. That made me cry and I was talking to her on msn and I told her that I had just finished crying. She said “There, there. *pats balls*”

That got me laughing. See how special out connection is? How can you bare to have it slip away? Well I know one thing for sure, I’m not gonna let it!!  >:(

Love ya my wife    ;D

I'm terribly sorry for everything I did

I know that I’m probably the last person that you would want to hear from but there are few things that I want you to know.

I didn’t know whether or not I should’ve called you or go see you in person because I wasn’t sure if you were going to take my calls or agree to seeing me so that’s why I’m writing you this even if you don’t read it.

I’ve been such an idiot ever since the first time I said no to you. Two years ago I was a child and now two years later I’m still the same person but the child in me is replaced with over thinking if that makes sense.

Two years ago I’ve hurt you about three times, maybe more. After that I had said hurtful things because I wanted you to leave me alone. I yelled at you when you texted me in the morning because you couldn’t help yourself. I ignored you when we were in the same school.

Two years later we talk again and it’s different. We meet up to go out and it was indeed very different. But even though it was different, I was still the stupid girl who had over thought about things. When you asked what I was thinking about, I said what it was that I told you. I didn’t think that you’d take it as if I wanted to start over.

I did think of starting over because you were probably the only one who’s the real deal. I did think that, but I wasn’t so sure if that was what I wanted. We rushed into things and its hard to start over and say let’s take it slow. I guess it could’ve worked out if I took the time to get settled. But being me, I over thought things and ended up hurting you once more.

For what I did in April I’m terribly sorry because I had let some idiot get in my mind not that we had anything going on between the two of us. When you called me that morning to talk, I said the harshest thing anyone could ever say and what I did was way over the top because you didn’t deserve such thing.

I was your first, you said I was the one who made you feel something no one else could make you feel. I guess I didn’t realise what it was that I was doing two years ago and five months ago.

I know that I shouldn’t even be asking for your forgiveness because I don’t deserve it one bit. But the reason as to why I’m saying that I’m sorry is because truthfully I am. I’m terribly sorry for what I did to you. I’m terribly sorry for what I have put you through and for what I made you feel inside.

I’m not asking to go back into your life because I’m sure you wouldn’t want that and I don’t think I could say that I will never hurt you again because I tend to over think things.

I really shouldn’t be telling you this because I don’t think that you would really care. But when I think about it, are you really that type to not care about an apology for something that was way past the line? You’re someone who is gentle and kind and you care for others. I don’t know what I’m trying to say by this point in thoughts but all I want is for you to know what I’m thinking.

I really am sorry for everything.

Life of being Me&You

Don’t you just love it when you sit there on your own or with others around and you suddenly have a smile on your face because of a random thought?

Don’t you just hate it when another thought pops up and washes the smile off your face?

My opinion upon rich people is weird. I’m always on both sides. That’s why I suck so bad at writing essays that include arguing. I suck at arguing in general.

Rich people, I hate them because just because they have money they think they can do whatever the hell they want when they want. They even think they can buy love! How stupid to think that they can because you can’t buy love okay? Yes maybe you can buy items and that item causes happiness but then when you realise what it is that’s going on, that happiness is then failed.

Rich people, I like them because they can do whatever you can imagine of. They can make things happen just like that when you can’t. Maybe you can if you tried your hardest and ran all over town to find the things you need. Rich people can do it with a snap of their fingers. But that’s also a reason for me to hate them because they can do everything I can’t. See what I mean by being on both sides?

The funny thing about rich people is they have the things we don’t when we have the things they don’t. Such contrast isn’t it? Between the rich and the not to rich, such significant contradictions are seen!

The things the rich don’t have is memories, reasons, experiences, love, friends, possibly family and much more.

They don’t have memories of them as a kid who woke to the morning of Christmas and running over to the tree to find a present with their name on it.

They don’t have reasons to beat the living shit out of someone because they do it because they feel like it.

They don’t have experiences of cooking for themselves or going on an outing with a bunch of friends and doing the simplest things that can be so fun.

They have no one who loves them because the only thing people would love about them is their money.

Their friends are only there because rich people are wallets to those who you call a friend.

The rich could possibly not have family because they’re way too busy with their work and so they hardly talk or see each other.

They don’t have so many things which are the vital things we commoners have in life that makes us so happy. So why should we be jealous of such crap and want to be like such people? We shouldn’t!

But then again we all want to be rich someday right?

Failed at arguing    >:(

I'm the type of girl

I'm the type of girl who stays at the top of the apple tree. Yes i'm an apple, arent all girls? guys dont dare to climb up to the top of the tree because they're afraid of falling and hurting themselves. thats why they choose the apples thats easy to get, the ones either on the floor who has given up or those who have been thrown back by someone else.
Yet i still sit patiently at the top of the tree, just waiting for that one guy who is daring enough to climb all the way to see what it is they can get. But as i wait, i do not realise that there is nothing wrong with me because before when i didnt think of this, i though there was something wrong with me, that i wasnt good enough. but i then realised that the boys are just afraid of climbing a god damn apple tree. use a ladder if you must but you better be real cause if you're not, this apple will poison you.

I'm the type of girl who isnt afraid of death. its not like i havent died before. but hold a gun to my head and i wont show you fear of dying. the fear you see upon my face will be the fear of feeling the pain when you pull that trigger, that pain that i will feel for that split second as the bullet travels through my head and kill me. thats what im afraid of, pain

I feel as if I’m always alone at home. Even if mum’s home I feel as if I have no one around since she’s always in her room and I’m always in mine.

I get scold at for being myself, for saying things I normally say by my so called family. My grandma, who raised me for half my life scold at me for saying someone’s house is going to collapse because they built it themselves. I guess it’s a harsh thing to say but that’s me. You can’t blame me for being me.

If you’re going to be around me then accept me for who I am, don’t tell me to be what I’m suppose to be because I’ll disagree and most likely I will go pissy pants at you.

This isn’t the time to piss me off because this the most important time of my life of everyone who is at the same age and year as me. It’s important to not piss us off. if you’re going to support us then go ahead, but if you’re going to say something stupid or unsupportive then shut the hell up, we don’t want to hear it.

Having good connections with your family is important probably more important than the connections you have with your friends. But what sucks is that the connections you have with your friends are much more understandable then those with your family.

Friends understand what you’re going through because they too go through the same thing now and then. Family don’t understand at all and they yell at you for being you. Parents are so old school who think just because we’re girls we have to behave politely and be gentle. And they think just because you’re guys then you have to be a gentlemen who never raises your voice no matter what.

Well they can go live that way, we’ll live how ever the hell we want. This is the main reason as to why I want to live with my friends. Ever since I was in primary I had always wished that when I grow up I’ll live with my friends.

This post, I’m not sure what its aim is but I really want the parents and family to understand what it is that’s happening. I want them to realise that time has changed and so has the way of living. They can’t stay in the time that they were born in, they have to understand but I guess I can see that it won’t be happening any time soon so why do I bother?

The best thing happened today, well just before. I cooked for mum ROFL, its not that I never cook but before when I cooked the simplest dish and brought it up to her room on a tray. She laughed and was amazed. She was happy to see the food on a tray being brought to her.

That’s happiness right there. The happiness that I try to find in my family, to have them smile at the simplest things. I should be grateful for what I have left, I should make the most of it as I can because soon I will grow up and I will always be out at either work or school. I won’t have time for family. I can already see that my sister doesn’t have time for us, she’s always out and that’s another reason as to why I’m usually alone now days.

It’s good to have someone out there that you can talk to. I only have three, but one I hardly get to sit down with. So this post is here because there’s no one to talk to at the moment.

Sometimes talking to someone who has no idea what you’re going through is good because it makes you feel like a normal human being who is living a simple life.

I find myself living a way too simple life, that’s why I took up Taekwondo, to make it harder for me so I can focus on more things.

But then when I think about it, I have as much problems as any other person does, I guess my life ain’t that simple after all.

This is who I am

When you walk around parks, shopping centres anywhere with people really, you see couples. some makes you want to throw up in your nose some makes you awe and some makes you wonder will you ever be that happy? Today is my best friend's three months with her boyfriend. Who would guess that they would meet again, talk again and be together again? I'm happy for her, for the both of them although my actions don't show it, inside i really do feel happy for them.

I always ask myself when will i find my own happiness? I see it all around me and its making me feel alone. my best friend has her happiness, so does my sister who is now always out with her boyfriend and friends. friends in school is coming together and is forming another relation. you'd never thought they would but when you actually see it, you re stunned.

Not many of you out there know me. i guess the only person who really knows me is my best friend, lindah. even when i sometimes claim that she doesn't know me at all, she knows me better then i know myself. its hard to define what kind of person you are because you're afraid of what you might pick out. normally everyone would pick out the bad things about them selves. that's what i do and its not a good way to see yourself. i have many good aspects and they re fun to deal with. as for my bad side, I'm sure few people can stand to be in the same room as me.

So why is it that everyone is missing out on all the good things about me? Come on guys, i may be small but i got the whole package and im the real deal. i dont play around, im serious with my feelings just dont take my insults too seriously cause thats how i show my love. i know i may be scary when you first meet me but like in the earlier post, thats how i is. im not a smart girl but im not lazy. i only do things that i like and when its my choice to do so. i hate being told what to do and i hate having people do my work or if you want dirty work. i dont tell people to do things for me cause i like them to be done right. there fore i do it and if i fail i have no one to blame but myself.
I know that i PMS alot, but thats because people dont understand and they dont listen. im a listener as well as a talker. i listen to peoples problems so why cant others listen to me when i want the room to be dead silent? thats the reason as to why i rage and i sometimes rage to make noise. i hate it when its silent when im all happy. it really brings down my mood.
I may hit you alot with all the punching, kicking, slapping and yelling. but thats just how i am. im sorry if im not gentle like other girls but this is my way of showing affection. thats the way towards friends.
i can be really affectionate at times especially to those who mean something to me, and that they mean alot. i give out this comfortable feeling when im around, its never awkward when youre with me because it will only be awkward if you make it awkward. and i am not the one for awkward moments.
I make those around me smile as i am happy. happiness is the main thing i look for in life. happiness makes the world go round. i myself go in circles because i tend i confuse myself with the most simplest things. i can be a lost case at times but i eventually understand. i understand people for one, but in order for that to happen, you need to tell me what it is that is bothering you.
Dont tell me to mind my own business when clearly you mean something to me. i care for my friends, i care for my family, i care for those who are there for me when im in trouble. i want to be there for you all the way even if i cant do much. theres many things i would do for you. if only you take the time and the chance for me. just give me a chance and i will do the same for you. i know it takes time even if im not a patient person, if its finding happiness then im willing to wait. i dont give up that easily, i hang on and i hope. it can be a bad thing because ive been disappointed so many times even when i do i still hope for the best.
Its times like this, end of year twelve, that you start to think and understand the things around you.
i know that if i just go out there and give things a try, i know i will be able to find what it is that im looking for. my own happiness. i can last long because i really do hold on to what it is that i want and believe in. i know this may sound corny and you may want to run away, but that tells me couple things about you, youre not committed, youre afraid, youre not the real deal so get the hell away from me if youre playing around.
Ive come across guys like you and ive seen things. youre just a bunch of dogs who tell girls that you like/love them just for your own entertainment. youre the kind of guys that make me want to give you a good couple of kicks in the nuts.

So choosing to be my friend or more then that will defiantly change your world as it would change mine. i still dont believe in love because i have not yet experienced it. no one has really looked through me and see what it is that i really am. but this is who i am, it takes times. and for those who has taken their time, i thank you, especially my best friend.
you say i love you
i say tsk but thats my way of showing love
love you heaps ;D

pick me up if you dare ;D

The end is HERE

Its the last week of term three and so the end is coming close. This whole week i'm so busy after school hours, i kind of freaked out. Today i had a reunion for MAC which is the school performance. The ones that was involved in it went and the year 12s got a gift card to JB which is cool-ish. Then i had an hour to kill before going to Taek so i went to nandos with the little ones who were challenging each other with eating chili. i was laughing so bad, i couldve died XD

Wednesday i have double free in the afternoon so i get to go home early but instead i have a orthodontist appointment to tighten my braces. Which colour should i get next? LOL then i come back to school so i can go to Lindah's joint so we can bake and stick our assignment in and talk at the same time because doing it on our own is boring. gosh that sounded wrong just now    D:

Thursday i have a double free in the after noon which is good. i was to have Taek but i HAVE to go to the stupid information night int he bloody city which i am not stuffed to go to but i HAVE to T_______T i dont wanna miss out on Taek, i get to kick ass!!!

Friday we get to go home early but i have the second last period free so i go home earlier and then we have Laser Wars which is going to be fun and then perhaps a movie afterwards depending on the time. I wanna watch Despicable Me!!!!! i wanna i wanna!!!   >:(

So today in Taek we were breaking boards by kicking, punching or just do it how ever you want. it was a good experience. it doesnt hurt though, if you dont break the board then yeah it hurts. the trick is to have it facing the RIGHT way and kicking with the HEEL of your foot and kick on the CRACK. most of us got pissed at it and kept kicking it full on, one being me until i kicked the frame that held the board which hurt like a b*tch!!!!   >_<"
now i cant walk on it which is a pain in the arse cause i need my foot for the next three days cause im gonna be doing a whole heap of walking ==

So today i saw something which amused me. I hardly get amused now days which isnt a shocker! i get pissed easily like usual and i was also slightly unhappy at the image which made me laugh a little on the inside. anyway, bringing your girlfriend to Taek is like taking her to an arcade and have her watch you play games. its boring and is a pain in the arse. heres a pointer, you DO NOT bring your girlfriend to Taek, arcades, pool, or anything that has YOU playing and HER watching. its boring for us girls and im sure you dont know that cause youre the one who is always up and doing something!

Im still disappointed about the age thing. i now look at few people differently. As for the Stupid Panda Kunt, i still look at him the same. i hate him. i was going to throw the kicking pad at him when i was putting it away since he was holding the bag but some guy was in the way and i hit him instead. OH WELL!!   stupid panda *twitch*

my foot still hurts and i cant fully stand on it T_________T

GEORGIA's BIRTHDAY / thoughts

Yesterday was Georgia's 18th birthday and party. It wasnt a big party like how EVERYONE drags the entire school to their house or anything. It was just a small get together for those who are close. Funny because I live like three houses away from her, now THATS close XD.

All together including the birthday girl, there was nine of us girls. six of us met up at my place because they didnt want to be early so they came to my place for about half an hour or more. Seven on the dot we all went over to Georgia's like a pack of wolves. XD

There was HEAPS of food and trust me when i say heaps!

 Yeah that was all the food that we had for nine girls. we were suppose to starve ourselves but most of us ate anyway. but even if we were to starve ourselves, nine GIRLS wouldnt be able to finish off ALL OF THAT!! By the end of the night we all had to take a plate of each item home which was funny cause the girls with most siblings had the hugest bag which was Sarah. XD

So we ate and then sang karaoke and then went the cinemas to watch Salt which was alright. it got confusing at times and i was so over the fact that she was killing everyone in the same way and her lips was always in that pouting way. LOL

Then we waited to get picked up to go back to the house and when we got back, we ate some more and made take away food bowls/plates. People started to leave cause it was past 12!!! I stayed to help with the clean up which was pretty fun due to the chocolate fondue had to reheat it to get the chocolate out. Now that i mention it, i feel like chocolate!! >:(

Photos were taken but not much so here's a few. one lindah wanted so yeah.

Georgia's birthday cake

left to right; Jamie, Georgia, Brigitte

left to right; Kelly, Lindah, Me

So have you ever saw someone who right away you know something about them? Have you ever met someone age guessed their age and most of the time youre right? Have you ever gotten the though wrong? I have and i dont know why i got so worked up about it.
No one looks their age anymore. Apparently i look like a 13 year old. This chick who is in yr 10 looks like a yr 12 or first yr uni student. This guy who looks like a 19 year old turns out to be a yr 11. Like what the hell?! i dont know if its the taekwondo uniform or this world is f***ed up but this is seriously getting to me which isnt a good thing because i should be going to sleep soon or else ill wake up late tmr T___________T

A**HOLES ^^

Ever had those times where you feel like doing something and you actually end up doing it? I have!! MANY MANY MANY TIMESSS! That's part of living really, living and belonging. You go around and try to find the things that you enjoy and like and whether or not you'll continue with it.

I just recently joined Taekwon-do which is AWESOMEEEE!!! Yesterday when i was in one of the lessons, we were SPARRING which is like a one on one and after every match you move up the line. How stupid of me to line up at the very end and end up moving up and fighting with the ones who are on a way higher rank of belt than me. I'm a white belt DUH!
I got punched in the nose by some asian, it was light and the guy was full on like OMG I'M SO SORRY!! ARE YOU OKAY DO YOU NEED TO GO TO HOSPITAL?!!!
i have no idea what he was trying to do. if it was sarcasm then he was doing a pretty bad job at it. if he was trying to act as if hes really pro with Taek then he was also doing a bad job at it. and if he was REALLY caring then again, he was doing a really bad job at it.

Don't you just hate it when people say that you cant do something because THEY HAVE SO MUCH BELIEF IN YOU?!! yeah, the funny thing about what they say is urging you to actually do it and rub it in their faces and laugh to yourself at their reaction.

Another thing to hate is A**HOLES!!! You know the type of people who act as if they're the G when in a group but when they're alone they're like sh*t scared and try to own you with useless and stupid words? Yeah, those people i hate. I ran into an old frienemy today after lunch cause i was talking to a friend outside of school. i saw him and when he passed, he was with another guy from school who is also an a**hole. i said hi like full of happy and all he did was check out my friend from head to toe (not to mention my friend was a guy) gay much? and only said a light hi to me and walked off when i offered a hug. F***ING FAG!!! If i could, i would've kicked his a** in there and then for being such a d*ck! he was never THAT MUCH OF A D*CK back when he still went to the school. i guess he got influenced by d***heads.

Oh and the word sorry...how would one say it to you for it to be meaningful?

PART OF MY STORY!! (bored) New Year Party.

Allan ran out of the party room after me as i ran into the elevator.
"Alice wait!!" he shouted and pryed the elevator doors open. "Just let me explain would you?" he almost shouted at me.
"EXPLAIN WHAT?! I DONT WANT TO F***ING HEAR IT!!" i shouted in his face, kicked him in the shin and pushed him out.
i stormed out of the hotel when the elevator doors opened and i was filled with rage! Allan was behind me in no time, bloody quick bastard!!
"Alice wait!" he said pulled me around to face him.
"WHAT!!??" i shouted and pulled my arm out of his grasp.
"I'm sorry" was all he said. Pissed off, i stared at him in the eye and decided to say everything that i wanted him to know about just once and for the very last time.
"Sorry?! For what? For using me? Playing me as if I'm a toy? For being an a**hole perhaps? For telling me that you love me and not mean it? For lying to me? For asking me for another chance or for kissing some other b*tch in front of me?!" i shouted at him.
"I didnt lie to you! i never did!" he argued.
"BULL F***ING SH*T!!!" i yelled. "You lied during the entire time that we were together! You even lied when we broke up! What the f*ck is the matter with you huh?!" i shoved him on the shoulder.
With Allan having nothing more to say, i turned and headed for the train station. Few seconds later, he spoke and ran after me.
"If you say that, why don't you prove it? When did i lie to you?" he asked calmly. Having enough of his sh*t talk and wasnt bothered to be talking to such dumb a** i kept walking and didnt reply.
"See! You can't prove it! I never lied!" he pulled me back. "Alice give me another chance" he held my hand.
I yanked my hand out of his grasp and shouted, "ENOUGH!!!" followed by a sharp slap across his face. "I'll give you a chance alright, to get the f**k out of my face and i never want to see you again" is said through with a serious tone and sharp piercing eyes. With those last words i left and that was the last time i had seen Allan. He was just as i thought from the beginning. He was just like those a**hole that i go to school with. How can i be so gullible?

nigguh please!!! >:/

Some people may think that i'm slow but thats not entirely true. i'm not slow, people just dont tell me things. and thats the problem.
ever had a group of friends and at one stage you were ALL VERY CLOSE? i did, i say 'did' because it feels as if the group is falling apart. not because its the end of the year but its because there are few people who arent telling some of us somethings along with the fact that we havent been together as a group for a while.

So tell me, when you have a group that you belong to and you have some sort of relation towards a friend in that same group, would you tell the group that theres something going on between you and that friend or let the group find out slowly?

I know its hard to tell because you don't know how to start off but whats more important; you not knowing how to start off or the group that you 'were' so close to?

would you really call it trust? i dont think so. if this person told me that they didnt know how to tell the group you know what id say??
QUOTED FROM HUY DEP TRAI
" "thoi di ma" equivalent to "nigguh please" "

So whatever it is thats going on please tell those around you and those that means something to you, even if now they dont mean so much, still you want to keep this friend dont you?

TAEKWONDO! D:

Firstly sorry for not being on lately. I had so much going on although i had forgot what it was. one being study which is like weird considering its me. two would probably be sleep. i havent been getting much sleep lately O___O no idea why.

I went to try out taekwondo yesterday. it was pretty fun, i liked it, probably better then dancing. XD
the bad side to it was that i met an a**hole. i hated him as soon as i paired up with him. his face? well lets just say that he had a face that i would want to flatten. he called me a "toy" because i wasnt in taek uniform and because i was kicking lightly. stupid a**hole said "no offence". yeah sure, no offence intended AT ALL HUH?!
he was laughing like a stupid fag and i so wanted to kick him in the nut and when he was down, kick him in the face so he'd actually shut up. GRRRR he pisses me off so bad.

im gonna kick this guys a** one day, just you wait you Stupid Panda Kunt. yes, thats what i call him because i was wearing a panda t-shirt and he was like, "c'mon", responding to my "What? *twitch" when he had called me a "toy" was, "youre wearing a panda t-shirt, i like pandas". i so wanted to GRRRRRR   >:(  and thats how he got his name, Stupid Panda Kunt!!!!

oh and like i wasnt pissed off enough yesterday that led to today, i was called arrogant when i was on the friggin bus! stupid little a**hole said, "nah im used to her arrogant-ness" responding to, "dont worry about her, shes just pissed", which made me even more pissed, i wanted so bad to whack him one. *TWITCH!!!

and im all soar from yesterday, havent did any workout lately so yeah... T____T
but im still joining taekwondo so thumbs up baby ;D