Be Warned =]

I’m sorry to say but I’m an honest person. You’re not what I’m looking for, not that I know what it is that I’m looking for. I just know that you’re not the one because it’s a feeling everyone has. When you know, you’ll know.

Yes I’m young and I shouldn’t play around or date as I wait because that’s just gonna fuck me up as well as you so forget it, don’t keep trying when I don’t feel the same way.

I mean, yes you’re funny and that I had fun when I was with you that one time, but that was only a fling and for crying out loud I was highly intoxicated with alcohol! T__T I don’t want to give you the wrong impression but I also don’t want to kick you away like how I usually do so for your own safety, be careful of what it is that you really feel. Interest and like is two complete different things. Getting the two mixed up really fucks you over. Trust me, I should know.

I also don’t want to be in anything that requires so much commitment right now, even if I say I would be able to make this shit last. Trust, I trust people easily, that’s why I get hurt so god damn much so now I tell myself to not trust you because I just can’t. I can’t give you my feelings and let you throw it around again and again, it’s not funny.

Unless if you’re an annoying little shit who is so god damn sure that you can change my mind then go ahead and do what ever, but when you get on my nerves, don’t blame me if I make you cry and run away like a weeping dog. I am a mean person and frankly, I couldn’t less if you were hurt because I had warned you.

Yeah I’m a bitch. =]

Just A Thought

Remember back then when we were together and how we were so happy? Remember how you make me laugh? Remember how I made you cry? Remember the feeling we had when we were there next to each other and the feeling we got when we were apart? I was thinking about those days just today and I couldn’t help but smile at the times we had.

I miss those times and thinking back to them kind of makes me want to go back. I tell myself that it’s just a thought and that I shouldn’t think too much about it because it won’t do any good especially at this moment in time. Indeed I am vulnerable and I will take any chance of happiness I can get, there fore I should be careful of what path I choose.

It’s probably the feeling of having someone there for me to talk to and hug that I miss. The feeling you made me feel was something I got sick of when you were around all the time and missed when you weren’t around.

That day when I saw you in the morning and not at recess, I missed you so bad up to the point where during lunch, when I did see you, I jumped with joy, squealed your name and ran towards you for a hug.

This is probably the empty feeling talking so please don’t think too much on it. But I really do want the feeling you made me feel back then. I’m not too sure about what my heart feels but, what ever it is that I’m feeling right now, it’s your love and care that I crave.

The thing I regret most was not being with you, it was being with you and not knowing what I had until I kicked you out of my life numerous of times and pulling you back.

So what do I do now? I’m not sure about my feelings, but I really do need what you gave me…I just don’t know what my heart and mind are planning, they’re planning different things I can tell you that…