How can anybody be anyone else but themselves? We're human, if we connect to certain people then we get along with them right? But why should I not be myself just because others might think differently of me? I really don't care about other peoples thoughts of me. If I don't know them then it shouldn't matter what they think of me.
Let me tell you a little something about me. This is who I am. I am open and cheerful towards everyone that I meet. Its easy for them to open up to me and talk like we're good friends. What's so bad about that? Yes I hug my friends when I see them no matter if we're close or not. What's it to you? Why is it that you always have to go right down to the very root of things? You always pull things apart just so you can understand them. You want to understand everything don't you? I don't understand why you have to know everything but it gets really frustrating when you keep on insisting that how I am is not who I am.
I might not be this way towards literally everyone that I know or meet but towards certain people its comfortable to be okay? so don't go pulling my actions apart and claim that it's something different.
What do you want me to do? I know you want me to be careful of how I am towards certain people and be aware of my surroundings but should I? I don't see why it would be a problem for me being so friendly and close.
I'm not trying to win friends, they become your friends over time and they like me for how and who i am. I'm approachable so if you don't like it then its not my problem.
You're someone special to me. But you don't want me to always run to you when somethings up. Do you really want me to run to my others friends? How would you feel if i go running to one of my guy friends? How will you feel about me talking about serious issues with them? Its impossible to follow what you want.
I know that you want us to work on ourselves before working on the relationship. And i know that were still getting to know eachother because we went straight to dating so its going to take a while. BUT instead of worrying about the little things, why don't you work on actually being a friend to me? you're not supportive and everytime i ask you anything you say you dont know. Do you know how frustrating that is?
I know that we shouldn't ask for things. But is it really that hard for you to treat me like you're girlfriend in front of others? You're really crappy at showing affection you know that? Thats why you dont understand why i show so much sometimes.
Its been two months since we've met. But it probably means alot more to me then it does to you. The thing is I did leave someone for you. The one I left was a lovely person. Loving and extreamley caring he never did anything wrong. But I left him because he wasn't what I was looking for. I would've settle for him but I didnt because i met you. So in me leaving someone for you, it proves that you're better so don't prove me wrong. I think and feel that you're worth it so don't prove me wrong. Its the last thing that i would want because it would kill me.
I know that you care. But you just don't know how to show it. Work on that. And also work on the fact that I am your Girlfriend. Treat me like one.
Alice~
