Life's big changes....

Look at the world so big, so bright. So many things occur at night. Life throws you hardships to test your limit, who would even think that you would hit right through it?

Spinning side to side in my desk chair I tap my pen lightly on the desk wondering what else I was supposed to do.  Nothing...
You'd think that when one door closes another would open, but that only occurs in the movies and stories. Within reality you have to go find a crowbar to force open them doors or even get a ladder to climb in through the window. The point is you're the one who has to put in the effort for the things that you want in life. There is no such thing as things occurring on their own for no reason. You create your own luck, your own choices and decisions. Paths are created by the things you think of and when you actually do it, the path simply moves forward.
If you're ever stuck some where never look or even go back because then you will find your self to be stuck even deeper in the mud. Take your time to plan out certain things and go for it. Turn right or left if you're stuck but never go back.
I need to make a turn but there is currently nothing there for me to turn towards. Its difficult but not impossible. So much has happened in the past couple months and yet here I am still standing. I may be coughing my butt off but I'm still standing...well....wrapped up in my blanket but still standing!

So where do I go from here? I've only ever had experiences within the hospitality industry and now I feel like a change. I don't fear change any more because when I wasn't ready for change life went and dumped an ocean full of change on me. So I'm currently wanting to look towards office jobs and most of them needs people who have experience. Sucks for me... but its not impossible..

Yours, Alice~~

Walking along the foot path Alice had realised that life has been really short. Already she noticed that she had to be responsible not only for her self but for those around her too.
Alice may be twenty years old but already she has the responsibility of a mother and almost wife. That was what she had wanted so as she walks to the front door she has on a happy face.
The door opened and she was greeted by a friendly face, Jackson, her trainer who is also a good friend. Jenna, his wife came up to greet Alice also. Jackson and Jenna was heading out for the whole day and so had asked Alice to baby sit their three year old Jayden. Alice strode into the house and picked up Jayden as if she was his nanny. Nanny is a bit old for Alice but Jayden loved Alice for who she was and Alice had always seen Jayden as a nephew.
It wasn't long until Alice was alone with the little three year old and because it was nice weather outside she had taken Jayden out.
Keeping a straight sight on Jayden at the park made Alice think to herself "What is a good mother?" "What is a good wife?" and "How will you know?"
The answer was simple of course, others tell you so.
For a few years as much as Alice wanted to settle down she was more focused on her career and so was her boyfriend. Having their relationship stand on a halt. It didn't bother them; although deep down Alice still wanted to settle but she had always told herself that she needed a stable career before getting married.
But seeing her friends get engaged and talk about the whole marriage and kids thing didn't help Alice's dream of starting a family of her own. Attending a close friend's wedding had showed how much Alice had wanted to settle and her boyfriend knew it to the core. But the two of them knew what the right thing was to do.
But who knows, maybe her engagement isn't too far off.

~~~May