One year goes by and another one comes. How good that new year is, no one knows until it is over. But no matter how good a year is, there are things that you cannot change even though deep down you wished it had never happened.
I guess i cant blame anyone for the things that happened, i cant even blame myself because whats the use. But you i never said i couldnt hate them, for everything and everyone who had made me shed a tear, to me, you're dead. That's why i deleted you from my world by pressing the delete button i have here. And you know what? It works, i dont think of you and i dont get mad anymore.
With what had made me cry most is probably something i can never get rid of. This thing, i say i can live without it but the truth is, no one can ever live without it. Its like living without air, it just cant be done.
Right now, I seriously give up. I give up on anything that requires much effort. This game we play to survive, yeah, i give up on that too. No matter how hard i try, it never works out. No matter how many chances i take, in the end, i'm back to square one. No matter how many chances i give, no one takes them and when i dont give chances and dont want to be part of this shit, someone comes into my life and stirs things up.
Can i seriously not get one stinky month alone? I dont want to be alone, no thats not what i want. I want to be left alone. There's a difference, find it.
This brand new year where there will be heaps of new experiences, lets see whether or not it will be a good year or not. I also given up on finding a job, something i fucking need but cant fucking get. For fuck sake!
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